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Victoria Park. A bank holiday Monday. Arrived here yesterday. Just a 75 minute cruise from the Angel. It's about 10 and the runners have been pounding past at intervals since the early hours. Had a pleasant but uninvolving evening last night. Just seemed contactless. Maybe it was just fatique. Or the age difference, but I wish for something with a bit more substance. The last conversation of any challenge, real humour, or interest was probably with Will and Kath. I find myself trying to avoid the pergorative 'lightweight' (it's also a term virtually trademarked by Alan Sugar). But this does describe my deep-seated dissatisfaction with most of our social encounters. There is something about conversation largely driven by anecdote that I find saddening. Not because anecdote as a conversational form is intrinsically dull; it's just that most people we meet have so little of interest to say.

Evening. A day of children. N lovely. A charming baby. A real sweetie. Came back to the boat just a few minutes ago. Running the engine to top up the domestics. The weather has teased us today with what it could have been like over the bank holiday weekend. It's now a mild spring evening. The planes are whirring overhead. But the fish aint jumping. Tired and stressed after couple of days of babies and toddlers. Too old to cope well with the inscesant demands of this alien breed. Well, not alien perhaps but parental over-weaning makes them seem so. Small, forming humans - not from mars. Hunger for a bit of adult conversation though. Now peace but little tranquility.

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Visitors to the boat today. Mike and Ikks and Richard dropped by on his bike. Iwona is back in Poland for a couple of weeks getting her teeth done and seeing her mum. Finally set off through the tunnel about 3. Not a nice day weather-wise but M and I are easy and enjoyable company. Very fond of them both. Had a compact tea at St Pancras basin and took on some water while we ate a lovely spread put together by Sally. She put a lot of love in to it - as she does most things. I take too much of this for granted. In fact I sometimes wonder if I take such 'spiritual' generosity as a kind of simple mindedness. But, then again, such paucity of spirit on my part is rooted in safety - a kind of psycho-social risk aversion. Something that took its place in my outlook in early life and has festered there over the years and has resisted all my feeble attempts to overcome its insidious power. I really don't know what I can do other than be wise to its tactics. Today it has resulted in souring the end of an otherwise lovely day. It was a lovely day, wasn't it?

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Slight muzzy headache. Went through an afternoon of assessing a pitch for a professional services contract. More style than content. On the bendy back to the boat. Have cleared a backlog of work for Bob. Hope to get through this Easter break without too much stress. Set my aspirations high you know.

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And then there's the squeaking. A pulse in time with my stepping around the office. Not just in the office of course, but noticeable there - to me if not to my colleagues...kind of reminds me of the old theme music to the Laurel and Hardy shorts. It comes from my right shoe. From near the heal I think. - stooped slightly as I walked to the office loo this afternoon. Trying to focus on the part of the shoe from where this squeaking issued. No luck so far. The exact source remains illusive. Think I might wear my Loakes tomorrow, instead.

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Evening. At least the coming long weekend will bring some light relief from the weekday routine.

I tend to the Morso with this routine now well rehearsed, making sure that the ash in the tray is merely warm - emptying the tray and then giving the thing a good 'raddle'. S likes that word...'Is it a real word'? 'raddle'. 'No idea', says I. 'But it's in the manual.'

Radio 4 murmers in the darkness. A programme about 'Britishness'. As I tap out this missive, I note the glow of the Blackberry illuminating the bulge of my Horlicks-engorged belly.

Enough. Time to turn in and escape into sleep. Shall I walk in to work tomorrow?

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Sunday - the 7th anniversary of my discovery of Sally at Tower 42. The sun is shining and we have The Archers keeping us company. Sally is a bit snotty at the moment and a boat has just chugged by us - heading east- maybe going to the next mooring at Victoria Park. We'll be here for a few days (a week maybe). My right arm is still giving me gip. Its very quiet here - considering our mooring spot. The east gate wasn't opened until around ten causing some minor consternation for sunday morning runners and the more ubiquitous cyclists which blight the towpaths in this part of London. I don't share any camaraderie with the bikers here. Bloody menace most of them. Would delight in seeing one career in to the canal...

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Finally left Paddington Basin after picking up two pairs of new glasses from Specsavers on the Edgware Road and taking on water. Got to Angel about 2030 in the gathering darkness. No respite from the Islington tunnel at this time of the day. We doubled up with a fellow 'continous cruiser' - a chap in his 50s with a smart newish boat - about the same length as Lysander. Passed a few niceties about doubling up and even got an exchange in about us going to France and 'Narrowdog to Carcassonne'...had a fraught passage through the locks at Camden. Usual hoards of youngsters out in force on such a sunny Spring afternoon. Sally did not enjoy the experience. Got quite stressed. Both.